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So as most of you know, that I have been a full- time nanny for almost 4 years for the same family.  If you have ever talked to me, then you know I talk alot about my kids Alexis and Connor. So today is technically my last day working for the family and it is so hard. Just thinking about this day for months has really made me very upset. I love that I am getting the oportunity to go and stay in Italy for 3 months, but the thought of leaving is also so sad. I am going to miss the hugs I get and the kisses and the silly jokes and the fun times we have together. I truly feel as though I am partially raised these children and now I am leaving on what we call "an extended vacation". Both kids know that I am going on a big trip, but do they really get it. They both talk about getting a new babysitter, but I dont think they really understand that it will a long time before they see me again. Last week I didnt work for Stephanie (the mom) and then when I got back on this Monday, Alexis asked me "how was your big trip?" and that was from me only being gone a week!

So of course I have cried all week, secretly when I can, because even though we all know I need change and I am really doing something great for me, change can also be bad.  I cant sleep and I am making myself eat. I do know today around 4 pm I will be a wreck! I mean I am crying so hard right now just in the library typing this thing because I am just thinking about today at 4 pm. This morning Stephane (the dad) gave me a hug and that was bad enough.

Please just keep me and my kids and Steph and Stephane in your thoughts and prayers because this "extended vacation" is harder than I thought it was going to be.

It is a sad thought to think of leaving my precious home in the hills of Dahlonega, GA… I have been here since August of 1998, that is a long time! This small city has been so good to me, and it will not be the ending for ole’ Gilly and Dahlonega. There will always be more Gold Rushes and more Parent/Alumni weekends, and many more nights staying on my Aero bed at Hotel Tench 106! That be-home-later- light will always be left on for this girl.  As I am packing up my boxes (well actualy I am taking a break right now) but packing up my boxes I cant help but think about how I moved into this apartment with Kendra with 2 large rubbermaid containers full of my clothing and my shoes and that was it…I really thought this was only going to be a mini move..who would have thought that 3 years later I would still be here! Oh and dont forget my Aero bed where I slept on the floor for almost 2 years until I finally purchased a real big girl bed! And here and there buying things for the kitchen, and my bed room furniture and all my decorations at IKEA, my room finally came together, after living on the floor for 2 years and with plain white walls and no decorations! ha ha… Leaving Dahlonega will be hard, but it will only make coming back so much better! My favorite hang outs are here, El Mag, Caruso’s, Wiley’s, The square, robyn’s nest (only when certain people are in town), Wal-mart, zaxby’s, wow all these have to deal with food, ha ha ha…but that is what I love! But when I drive down this hill and get to see my school in the valley and to see the sun gleam off of Price Memorial every time really warms my heart! and it makes me think of all the fun memories I have in this small town, and it makes me so proud that I did go off to school and make all new friends and I found a new Gilly that people from home dont know!  Seeing the leaves change colors and seeing more and more motor cyclists every Fall is a great pleasure to me! Eating my way thru Gold Rush and supporting my T-shirt will be hard to miss…and dont forget the Alumni Reception…I am sure my friends will make up for my losses (if you know what I mean… ha ha thanks)!!! Dahlonega and the people there have meant so much to me over the years, but it is time to move on, and packing up is the hardest part!